Wednesday- October 17, 2007

Lots of Waiting
Until now, I haven’t really written about too many spiritual things. But, today I learned something new. In the lab while during experiments there was a lot of waiting in between steps. For example, I added an endonuclease to a DNA sample which takes 1 minute and then I waited 1 hour. Then I added a different endonuclease to the sample and then waited another hour. Anyway, I had something that was bothering me for some time. It was deciding what I want to do in the future. Recently, I have been seriously thinking if medical school is the thing that I want to pursue in my life. One reason for that is that I haven’t had much success with my applications yet. When I went to New York to interview I met my “competition” and it was pretty intimidating.
One of the questions I was asked in my interview was, “what do I see myself doing down the road”? I couldn’t think of a good answer. It was because I have been thinking of a back up plan to medical school. I was seriously contemplating graduate school or even just directly working after college so I don’t have to depend on my parents. So many things have been going through my head, and there was no real peace because the future is uncertain.
But today as I listened to a church general conference talk I found some relief. I heard the story of Rachel in the Old Testament. She and Jacob waited a long time before they were married and they had to wait a long time as well to have kids. They must have gone through during the waiting process. But in time, “God remembered Rachel,” she was blessed with children, and her posterity flourished. That led me to remember and feel that God is watching over me too and in time everything will work out. I then made up my mind to give my best effort to get into medical school. I put a lot of effort to getting into medical school so I could one day become a doctor and provide for a family. Now I just have to wait for the best, holding a patient and hopeful heart.